One whole stinking year of marriage goodness.
I am not even sure how time passed so quickly. Today I just reminisced all day about how wonderful today was a year ago. I looked at photos, creeped our facebooks, watched our wedding video, and more.
I am so happy yall. So much joy.
Lets see if I can try to remember all the things that have happened over the next year.
We got married, went on a honeymoon, moved in together, started life together, i worked at the hospital loving on newborns and their families, heath sold mountain gear, started a blog about being thankful, said ‘see you later’ to two of our best friends as they moved away to france, said goodbye to our darling first apartment, moved to littlefield, heath preached and I fell more in love, watched my baby brother play his last season of football, watched friends have their first babies, waited out in the cold on black friday for a washer and dryer, celebrated our 22nd birthday, made videos, got a baby puppy and named him leo, launched my business fulltime, trusted jesus with our life not our plans, moved back to lubbock, started new jobs, attended J*’s workshop, met so many new wonderful friends, celebrated Jared & Kelsey’s 1st anniversary, chopped my hair off, shot so many awesome senior sessions, ate pizza and beer several nights, had baby fever, celebrated friends graduating, bought DMB tickets and went for the 2nd time, watched my brother graduated from HS, had jury duty for the first time, traveled, went to church camp at Ceta, watched friends have their 3rd baby and get engaged and get married, made pallets on the living room floor, got a wedding band, started shooting weddings every weeekend, went to austin and shot a wedding for the first time together, wished we lived in austin….
changed, find out more of who we are, struggled, learned about selfishness and selflessness, gave up old things, started new things together, walked through the valley, and found the mountaintop again, learned about Jesus’ love more than we have before, lived, forgave, held lots of grudges, cried, and laughed alot.
I never would have imagined marriage like our marriage is. It is not like anything I would have imagined or dreamed it being. First, it is so much more perfect than I thought, and it is so more imperfect also. I know you probably think how crazy that sounds. But the Lord prepared my heart for this time but also challenged me to the fullest. Marriage is so much bigger than we all think it is. Its so much more important than your wedding dress and your decorations and your flowers and who is in your wedding party. Because it all fades. Marriage is not a fairy tale. It is freaking hard, you have to allow yourself to change into a better version of yourself…even if you already think you’re the better version of yourself. Marriage is not about you or your husband. There is absolutely no room for selfishness. Its about the Lord, the covenant, that you are commissioned out…together, for His glory.
Every time I have had someone ask me how married life is, I have had to respond with true and honest answers. Mostly because I don’t feel like I ever heard the truth, everything was always sugarcoated for me. First thing I say is “Its so freaking hard.” and end with “But I could never imagine life any different.” Life is life, and the ups and downs are ever present, regardless of our relationship status. This is my attempt to be honest about both. It has been on of the roughest years to date for me personally, and I can say the same for my love. Jesus stretches you, moves you, and molds you in ways that are so painful. But so rewarding. My problems did not go away when I got married, I did not miraculously turn into the perfect wife. I learned expectations ruin everything. Communication is everything. But regardless of the hardships…I fall more in love with my husband everyday. Every single day. I dont regret, I rejoice in the suffering and look forward to the future.
Heath, thank you for being perfect for me. Thank you for listening to Jesus, and for fighting away selfishness in every situation. I am so proud to call you my husband. You are funny, silly, and know exactly how to keep a situation light. I need that, even if it can drive me crazy. Thank you for sticking by my side for all the millions times I have cried or yelled. You didnt know how emotional I could be until this year…tehe. Thank you for loving me through it. I am so proud of how freaking hard you work for us. I love how much you love our little puppy…I cant imagine how awesome you will be with our future kids. Thank you for dreaming with me about babies and showing me patience for waiting on the future. I love when you come home at night, I love when you talk and tell me about your day and I love when you sit and and just watch TV. I love you in every situation. I will love you through everything. I am so excited to have one year under our belt. Can you believe it? I love you so much!
My heart grows every time I see someone is entering into the season of engagement and marriage. I couldnt imagine working with anyone other than brides and grooms and being a part of that one day and the days following. Basically Im feeling extremely in love with my husband and in love with love. Enjoy our beautiful wedding video by Adam Stone, our perfect wedding images by Two Pair Photography, and my few fun bridals by Betsy Lackey!